Genuinely looking into switching a full time job to be a full time student with a part time job. My expenses are pretty low (or will be once I knock this credit card out next month)…I think it’s survivable. 

Just have to decide if I really love film enough to go to school for it or if there’s something else I love enough or like enough to go to school for.

The loans after all of this will be appalling but I think I’d take it. I’d take it if it meant going off to do anything else, anywhere else.

I’ve been thinking about doing this a few times but now….well, now, it’s time to research because it’s suddenly late May of 2013 and it will just as suddenly be late May of 2014 and I can’t be here still, I can’t.

tagged → #i'm so dramatic i'm sorry #i just #being here feels like it's sucking me dry #i'll be a full blown insomniac by july #and i'm trying not to think like that and keep life in perspective #but i just don't want to do this anymore

MANAGER HAS FINALLY LEFT. So my coworker will revert to mumbling and silence. I’m pretty sure he’s just this way with me and I don’t particularly care all that much cause I can be just as monotone and blank but God, it’s annoying.

At least half ass politeness, bro. Even I can half it.

tagged → #this is a whiny day #i'm sorry

phenomenaaa replied to your post: I’m not sure if it’s this song or if I’m genuinely…

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tagged → #phenomenaaa #thanks phen

I’m not sure if it’s this song or if I’m genuinely at my limit again but I’m seconds from crying at work when I barely kept it back yesterday.

tagged → #my chest hurts #i want to go home #and hug my teddy bear

As soon as I possibly can, gonna start applying everywhere I can. I’m so done with this.

Nothing is even happening right now but I have this simmering distaste for this hotel and for the guy I have to work with.

I just want to run. Can I plausibly find a part time job and go to school or something?

I just.

Escape.

I have to escape.

tagged → #hiding in the bathroom right now #i dont want to go back #i have to but i dont want to
“When Beethoven passed away, he was buried in a churchyard. A couple days later, the town drunk was walking through the cemetery and heard some strange noise coming from the area where Beethoven was buried. Terrified, the drunk ran and got the priest to come and listen to it. The priest bent close to the grave and heard some faint, unrecognizable music coming from the grave. Frightened, the priest ran and got the town magistrate. When the magistrate arrived, he bent his ear to the grave, listened for a moment, and said, “Ah, yes, that’s Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony, being played backwards.” He listened a while longer, and said, “There’s the Eighth Symphony, and it’s backwards, too. Most puzzling.” So the magistrate kept listening; “There’s the Seventh… the Sixth… the Fifth…” Suddenly the realization of what was happening dawned on the magistrate; he stood up and announced to the crowd that had gathered in the cemetery, “My fellow citizens, there’s nothing to worry about. It’s just Beethoven decomposing.”

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eelster:

sodamnrelatable:

oh my gosh

BEST JOKE.

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THIS JOKE SHALL BE TOLD FOREVER

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😂😂😂😂😂

SERIOUSLY so many beethoven jokes on my dash recently

tagged → #just opened my mouth and released a long raspy HAAAAAA
Excited to be at work face.

Excited to be at work face.

tagged → #im amped on adrenaline from cooing over my boy but its draining away under exhaustion
tagged → #all my college babes

misandrwitch:

Is This A Kink I Have Or Was This Fic just Really Well Written; an existential crisis in three acts

tagged → #the story of how i developed a gunkink
tagged → #shipping it almost against my will #heh #my will #hannibal #spoilers